I’ve let go of so many things lately mostly due to trying to find some for of socialization online and the best way I found to do that is though a community called Stickam. Sure there are assholes there but I’ve meet plenty of good people and some that go through paranoias that I am all too familiar with. I’ve also started doing a weekly webcast on mental health and I have found people that I can connect to and like all things in life I look for the easiest form of gratification and this has given me a chance to find that.
It hasn’t helped that I am going to be seeing a new PDOC here next week and my therapist will be out for a couple of months and I have been out of my antidepressant for some time now (about day 3 I thought I was going to lose it). I’ve had some rough patches, (been argumentative, sleeping more). Hopefully though my PDOC won’t do what he is notorious for and change my cocktail up too bad, I guess it’s a good thing that I am taking my wife with me.
I had a meeting at my lawyers office for what I thought was going to be something productive and it was nothing more than another form filling out session. It wasn’t all bad though, I did, after over a year, finally get to find out they can expedite things if we show them brown bills and showing eviction notices… wonderful eh?
Well I’m off for now, I’ll try to get back more on task here soon. Hopefully I’ll get back to doing somethings more around the house and on here after I get some meds balanced out in my system.
This a shameless plug here but you can find me on Stickam at:
www.stickam.com/mrsticky
Drop by and say “hi” sometime
benji1974 on May 7th 2008 in Uncategorized
Ugh, what can I say? I haven’t been writing much if you can’t tell. Just can’t think of anything to jot down, I’ve unfortunately have gotten hooked on a chat site called Stickam. While it’s great that I have meet some really cool people there it seems that I am using it as another for of escapism, not dealing with things in the real world.
It seems though that this has led me down the road of procrastination more times than I care to count, personally it’s such a part of myself anymore that I don’t know how to over come it. I know what I should be doing, I just can’t make myself anymore.
My son has been off school for spring break and it’s been interesting. We got to go out to play a few times this week and we spent last night at the emergency room because he swallowed a watch battery. He’s 4 so how mad can you really get at him about this? We get the pleasure of going back to the er in tomorrow to get mo x-rays done to make sure the battery has passed… oh joy.
My neighbors are moving out because they have been asshats and won’t keep their music down. I don’t mind loud music I indulge in it myself from time to time but there is a time and place for all things and sitting in a car and playing music loud enough to where I can feel it in my couch isn’t it. It’s scares the crap out of my son when he is trying to take a nap and that’s just not cool. The shame is I like the kid next door and I like teaching him about his stereo equipment bur he just won’t listen when I tell him he needs to take it down the road when e wants to try out something new with it and he has to be all loud…. oh well. Hell maybe I’m just getting too old. God knows there are plenty of days that I feel it.
I like the “Trip down memory lane ” posts that I have been working on and I hope to be able to get back to them soon and do some more exploration… I think they are really healthy. I really don’t want to leave those unfinished and look forward to getting back to them soon.
benji1974 on April 13th 2008 in Uncategorized
